DUBLIN, IRELAND (CNN) – There is no polite, simple way to explain what happened to Darren McGavin on the basis of his youth church.
From 7 years on, McGavin was mistreated several times a week by Tony Walsh, one of Ireland's most notorious pedophile priests, for more than four years.
"On one occasion, I was raped with a crucifix," McGavin said.
On the other: "He put me on the table and he had the robes, the ropes of the robes and he tied my hands to my legs over the table and he began to rape me."
Walsh has destroyed the life of McGavin. The years since the abuse has been consumed by trauma and mental illness.
"I am 46 years old and I have been admitted since my twelfth medicine," McGavin said. "When will it stop?"
McGavin & # 39; s is the story of a victim in a country that has been deeply wounded by the horrendous legacy of priests who have abused large numbers of children and often get away with it.
It will be the decisive issue for Pope Francis when he proudly visits Catholic Ireland – where many churches are now largely empty. Where the institution struggles for purpose and credibility.
"I went to the hospital when I was 12, and I was sexually abused by the Catholic chaplain," said Marie Collins.
After decades of recovering from her abuse, Collins has become a powerful voice for reforming church culture.
Last year she ran away from a panel of the Vatican that advised Pope Francis because nothing changed. She was also not satisfied with his recent written apology.
"We have the Pope another day, a strong letter, much of it is good, but unfortunately he still says" working on it "to find a way to keep people responsible, & # 39; she said. "We have been working for decades. You can not still work on it. "
In Phoenix Park, the same park where the pope will say mass, McGavin said he had ever been raped.
"I did not even get a" sorry "," said McGavin. "He did not even say & # 39; Sorry & # 39 ;."
McGavin and other victims say that apologies are important.
But they also want a firm policy from the Pope to ensure that nobody suffers as they did it again.
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